A Passionate Music Director

His hands waved around frantically as he sang vociferously at us. Most of us laughed, but I kept a solid, straight face. ‘This ardent little man truly loves what he does’, I remember thinking. ‘He is a man who found what made him happy in life — a passion — and he stuck with it.’

And I remember envying him, because he knew what he was good at, whereas I don’t. As high school graduation creeps closer into view, I fear not knowing what I want to do for the rest of my life. What will I be? What will I do? Will I be happy? They are all questions that consume my mind routinely.

So I watched him fine tune our music; and I watched our band’s sound grow brighter, deeper, and more beautiful. ‘Not only is he happy,’ I thought, ‘but he is good at what he does. And that is what makes a man great.’

Afterward, I criticized a friend who I saw laughing. I told him, “I want to be just like him.” He continued to laughed. So I pushed further, “I want to enjoy what I do for a living. I want to be great at what I do. I want to do something that has depth and meaning. I want to help the world through my work. I want to be great.”

My friend laughed some more.

What makes a man great is not necessarily his accomplishments or achievements or the size of the mark he leaves behind in the world. People who believe so are petty and arrogant. No, I believe there is something more to life than mere contribution. And that is passion — to be passionate about one’s work; to love doing it every second you are doing it; to have fun, laugh, and enjoy — that is what I want.

Because the future scares me. I take comfort in the presence of my parents, and in the knowledge that they will take care of me if I falter. I look ahead and realize that they will be gone in three years. I realize I must very quickly find what I am simultaneously good at and passionate about. And what haunts me is the knowledge that I don’t know.


5 Responses to “A Passionate Music Director”

  1. Is there a way that you can have passion and talent without putting it in your work?

  2. I forget who, where, and why I was told this; but trust me when I say this is true: To be happy, you must be happy in love and work. If I can take care of work, then all I’ll have to worry about is my seduction skillz… that actually may be a problem…. I probably should focus more on my work.

  3. completely agree with this post

    i also agree that MR F is the best teacher in the world and parallel this mysterious creature described in this post

  4. Samuel Chen Says:

    ..and then, you realize there’s no free will. And all praise is dropped 😀

  5. There are people who’ve been forced to take jobs that they hate or do not suit them, but find pleasure elsewhere, such as in their children, marriage, friends or outside hobbies.

    For example, “school” is my work, at the moment. Let’s say I don’t enjoy it, but I love to see my friends or play my sport.

    A lot of it is on attitude. I don’t have everything, but I am very satisfied and optimistic, so I am happy.

    “seduction skillz…”

    Be careful, you know what the divorce rate in the U.S. is of now.

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